NEMO

   Chemo sounds like Nemo, doesn't it?  "Finding Chemo", starring Ellen Degeneres.  Don't worry.  I'm not having it.  I hear about chemo alot lately.  I have great respect for someone who goes through it.  One friend who has been a Godsend to me during all of this says that healing from a mastectomy was nothing compared to the chemo.  She said it's the gift that keeps on giving. She said some of her memory has left her.  I went to a breast cancer support group when I was first diagnosed and one woman said she had to be hospitalized because she almost died from chemo.  I heard Sharon Osbourne say that you think the cancer has come back because the chemo is so awful.  It's so weird.  As I shared with a friend last night, I don't feel like I had cancer.  The doctors saw it.  Not me.  And the doctors biopsied and looked and looked at everything. They gave options, but I don't feel like I had anything wrong.  How is it that they know more about a body that I have lived in 55 years and they just met me?  I know this is obvious, but just saying.   A test is being done right now that determines the likelihood of the cancer returning.  Do I really want to know this?  This also determines whether the oncologist will recommend chemo or just radiation alone.  It determines whether he says you will be very sick for a long time throwing up, losing your hair, your memory and God knows what else... or  just nuking you with radiation.  I'll stick with the latter.