For some reason I have had a hard time blogging. Nothing to write about. My biggest "journey" recently, has been singing with Windsong Feminist Chorus. This director has asked me to audition for a solo for 5 years now and I finally did and I got it. So, on January 11th, we had our concert and I thought we did a good job. I did my solo, and got wonderful responses. I felt very good about it until I saw the video. Yuk! My glasses broke and I had to wear my old ones which looked sort of "heavy". My clothes were old. Definitely need a new wardrobe.
During this whole process, my fellow singers were very supportive and made sure I kept the beat. My brother used to be an actor and now he is a high school teacher. He has written some music for an off Broadway show. I asked how rehearsals were going and he said he had forgotten how egotistical actors can be. I thought about this and of course remembered the plays I had done and it was sort of a "ME" kind of world. The women I sing with aren't like this. We are so supportive of one another and help each other as much as we can. When I first sang my solo in front of them, they all cheered. When I had cancer, they took me to many appointments and when I broke my hip, some took me to physical therapy and some took me grocery shopping
. Whatever they could do to help. It seems if someone has as issue, the rest of the chorus offers whatever they can. We hang out even if we're not singing. And when we sing, we feel good. Some of them have helped me move...TWICE. We try to encourage each other to audition for solos, and Karen, our director, likes to give as many folks a chance. Sort of "spreading the love", if you will. I think it's wonderful and I will get over seeing myself perform. I used to teach an acting class using a video camera and many of the students found it hard to watch themselves. I had great respect for them, especially the people who have never performed before. And even though I have been a big fat ham bone since I was a kid, I have had tremendous stage fright ever since I broke my back. And YES, since that performance on January 11th, I have great respect for me too.
